It passes all my understanding.

November 21, 2006. I was involved in a serious car accident. It could have been worse, I could have died that night. McKinzie could have died. She could have lost her legs. But she didn't. I could have lost my memory permanently. But I didn't. Alot of things could have been worse but they aren't. God has a plan for us all. There is a reason I am here today. There is a reason I got all the money I did to go to college. There is a reason I meet the people I do. There is a reason certain people hurt us. What is the reason? I am not quite sure except to teach us a lesson.


I cry alot. And I just rembered I am crying right now because I didn't take my medicane. Sorry mom I will go do that now. After listening to conference I just recalected all the hard times in my life, and what I have learned from them. I don't know why our Father lets certain things happen to us, all I know is that He knows what he is doing.

I was having a really hard time here in Logan, I failed almost everyone of my tests I had taken, I missed my family, I just wanted to go home. Well that night I got a call from the 1st Counsiler of my ward, he wanted to have an interview with me for a calling. In college wards everyone has a calling so I was expecting to get a calling like, the texter of the ward. Seriously they just make up callings so everyone has one so I was expecting much. Well I was wrong, I was called to be a ward missionary. Wow. I was so surprised by that. Why me? I haven't even read the frikin Book of Mormon all the way through...Why me? Even if I don't help many people, it will help me so much. The exact day I was going to pack up my things and just go home...I got one of the most important callings.

I'm just in awe how everything works out. Why am I with the family I am? Why am I friends with the people I am? Why did I do the things I did?
I don't know why. But there is a reason that only God knows.
One song I cannot stop listening to right now is called "It passes all my understanding" by Cherie Call.

I was sitting on a southbound plane,
I was buried in a magazine
When the man in the next seat over
Wanted to talk to me
He talked about the universe,
He talked about Saturn's rings
He said, "I might be an atheist,
Except for just one thing:

It passes all my understanding
How it all worked out just right
The distance that we live from the sun,
The stars that shine at night
We may prove that it was just an accident
But how did it begin?
It passes all my understanding"

I told him, "You are a scholar;
You know things that I don't know
But I believe a God in heaven
Made everything below
And I know we are his children;
I've known it since I was two
But when it comes to being struck with awe,
I'm just like you

It passes all my understanding,
All the beauty we have here
From the majesty of the canyons
To a tiny baby's ear
And even when I can't believe it,
He still believes in me
It passes all my understanding"

We watched the sun set through the clouds
In a tiny little airplane window
With people sleeping all around
And I thought of how we just expect this world to be
And when the flight attendant passed me by
I threw away my magazine

It passes all my understanding,
That the Lord knows both our names
And that He made this world for everyone
That was sitting on that plane
And in spite of all of man's distractions
He offers us His peace
That passes all my understanding